Blog: Over the years people have came into my life and left. To be honest at times i have been wrong, at times situations have been wrong. Often we say that love is like a bird, if you hold it too tight, it may crush, if you hold it too loosely it might fly away. But no one ever told what to do when you nurture the bird and love it and give it all that you had and it still flies away? Where do you seek it? Do you even seek it or do you sit and find the fault within you? Do you turn up to your friends, family and ask them why you or you just sit there and hope that the bird might someday fly back. And when it doesn't, do you take it in or do you shut the door, for all the misery you had been through? All this while, the bird was soaring up high and you were dying, do you still feel the same or do you just tell it to leave? What if it never comes to you? Do you wreck the cage or shut it never to let any other bird in? Do you sit or do you ask for reasons? Do you wait or you...
I am the chutiya person that I pull cheap shots to attract love or get attention and end up getting irritated or even hating myself. I wish, I just wish I could move away from the people and things I feel attached to, very easily, so that I don't have to feel so embarrassed and unwanted. And, so that I gain some confidence and not stay dependent. The thought of being alone shivers me up. But at the same time being co dependent hurts like damnnn! I want to be that bitch ass attitude person. And then I give too many fucks. Yeah yeah, I might be over reacting and shit. But tbh, I need to learn how not to crave for attention because one person or any other person should not be responsible to make me feel loved. My insecurities take over me so bad that I just, I just stoop down so much so that I forget that I am to be respected and that I should love myself first. I have so many issues that, no prudent person can deal with. Idk, th...